Things

So, I should be at aikido right now, but I'm not as my brother's visiting. I missed Monday's session too on account of a migraine - I get them very rarely and had apparently forgotten what fun they could be. I actually did a bit of research when i could bear to look at a screen again to see what the triggers could have been - turned out i could have ticked about 6 possible trigger boxes, so i suppose not a huge surprise under those circmstances.

Anyway, currently i'm quite tired and achey, which i think is partly skirting the edges of a cold and partly stress. I took today off on account of my bro, but i'm in work tomorrow because the big boss is coming up to supposedly sort out the assorted crap that has been the work situation for the last year - except as far as i can tell he's been totally disorganized about it and i have no idea what's going to happen or who he's actually coming to see - the dean or HR or what, he hadn't worked that out himself on Wednesday.

My boss is winding me up stressing about it, which is annoying because what she's stressing about is stuff i couldn't give a toss about, namely her absenteeism. She's threatening to resign if it's not sorted out, i'm not sure she's ever registered my complete lack of 'oh noes' whenever she does.

I need to be ready tomorrow because he might want to see me alone, others might want to, it could be a total shitstorm if my boss gets hysterical again. I need to be able to fight my corner, to make it known that at the very least i would like some financial appreciation of the last year plus of effort. I need to not back down or sit mute and I'm just tired and a bit rundown and stressed and horribly aware that my likely reaction will be to sit back mutely while whatever kicks off.

Any words of wisdom/encouragement/support oh intarwebs? Before i panic myself have an anxiety attack and end up even less coherent/assertive tomorrow...